Taken at the Getty Museum in beautiful Los Angeles in April 2008.I just got back from a farewell party for my lab mate. Toward the end all I could think about was my work and personal problems. I got quiet and forgot to live in the moment. And now I smell like the bonfire.
I talked with a sage and loquacious soul in L.A. last night. We discussed how we both tend to live in the past. We reminisce about the good days, try to go back to them, and are convinced that nothing will ever be as good again. We had emotionally traumatic experiences and for one reason or other, can't seem to move forward fully. What to do? I know moving on is a mentality, not an event you wait around for. I currently botch up my future because I try to recreate the past. I beat myself up over my exam because every day I tried to remember how I used to study, how confidently I went about things, instead of just focusing on the task. At some point you have to forgive yourself, but right now I'm so screwed up.
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Forgiveness will come soon...especially because you know you deserve it. It may take a while, but you'll get there. I promise. =)
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